...that I've wanted to go out. Sunlight has seemed adorable, outside inviting.

..that I have needed to go out, purchase a few various pieces of hardware for the home and the computer.

...that I have failed, anxiety, social phobia and the great outdoors have become a pain, a burden I feel unable to face. That I have been sitting for an hour in the shower, trying to will myself to leave the dark bathroom and get out.

It is getting to me and I am feeling bad. I do not know how to break the pattern.