Met an old friend today again, Anneli. It was for the first time in a few weeks, met her all too little while she was here, caught up, and said goodbye. It was tough, tearfelt, but I've not been well enough to be outside, even less well enough to call her up and ask her out for tea or hugs. Still, it was bittersweet and nice. Realised how much I've missed her make-believe hippy-love. As she said herself, she wants to be a hippy and feel good about people, but she doesn't like people enough to do it.

Stare like a zombie,
While the mother holds her child, watches him die,
Hands to the sky crying-
Why, oh why?
'cause I need to watch things die, from a distance

And so it goes. It was nice, tomorrow she is gone, left town again, and the country. Without much hope by the look of things, but still. She made me smile, it was a comfort, and she's adorable.